<p>Rationale</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; In all the history of the world of people who have broken up with people didn&rsquo;t result in that person&rsquo;s death. So does everyone who has had a fight feel guilty, and the people who kill themselves innocent? Which is everybody. Everybody has had a fight. Is that suicidal thought process logical? Reasonable to say? It&rsquo;s not even reasonable, which makes that thought process of killing yourself, unreasonable.</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; If your thought process is not correct, logic doesn&rsquo;t fit. It&rsquo;s almost an &ldquo;if-when&rdquo; equation. If a loved one's suicide is your fault, it means that everyone who has been in a fight, commits suicide. The reverse side is if the person who commits suicide is at fault.</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; What is the logical conclusion to saying &lsquo;it&rsquo;s your fault?&rdquo; You take that premise and pertain it to everyone who has committed suicide. So every person who&rsquo;s yelled or fought commits suicide. From the outside, looking in, there is no logic, only emotion. If you asked anyone, they would agree. &nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &ldquo;You have to put in place a logical argument,&rdquo; Chris told me. &ldquo;To counteract the thought pattern of defeat.&rdquo; Either that, or prove the thought pattern of blaming yourself false, because it&rsquo;s not logical reasoning. Nobody looks at the one survival of a plane crash and says &lsquo;it&rsquo;s their&rsquo; fault, and yet the survivor does. Why? If you think about what that is saying, it doesn&rsquo;t make sense. The survivor is not guilty, but the failure in mechanics is responsible. I feel like it&rsquo;s not something that you remember in a negative state of mind, you may get tunnel vision. You forget. Something draws you to feel like that. Eradicate it. You have to force yourself to believe the truth. Just because you believe you&rsquo;re responsible, you&rsquo;re not.&nbsp;&nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; In that moment, you have the, &ldquo;it&rsquo;s my fault or it&rsquo;s not my fault&rdquo; supposed. Knowing your brain will be heavy with &ldquo;it&rsquo;s my fault.&rdquo; Times of guilt are a given. When you know it will come up, you have to be armed with an argument that is logical, that you can follow, and you can believe. One that proves that false thought process as brainless. &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Once you build that argument, and later have the feeling that it&rsquo;s your fault, go through the argument in your mind again. If you have a thought process that has too many painful emotions attached to it, fall back on logic. Is what you're feeling reality or survivors guilt? The bad angel-good angel on your shoulder, give the good angel some ammunition.</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;I got in a fight with Kirk, yelled at him and he killed himself. A major split with Steve. It&rsquo;s my fault? It &lsquo;feels&rsquo; like it fits. The goal of hopelessness is to doubt what you feel. I doubted what I felt. The logic seemed much foggier, less clear. The tunnel opens up, even ever-so-slightly, and you begin to see the truth.</p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; At some point you know what has to make sense, not just for other people, but for me too. There was a flaw in my logic. If I am to blame, then &ldquo;fights&rdquo; are the cause of suicide. But everybody argues or yells at other people, it doesn&rsquo;t cause suicide. Even people they desperately love. So it has to be something else.</p>